I didn't know

I didn't know how hard it was going to be on ME to wean the baby from breastfeeding.
I didn't know how much I was NOT going to miss my job, even though there are days I wander around the house, not sure what to do with myself.
I didn't know that tending to the baby would take so much time! He's so little, and yet needs so much.
I didn't know how much my heart would overflow with love for my son, to the point I am scared of how much I love him.
I didn't know how nerve shredding a baby's crys can be.
I didn't know my face would completely light up and I would become more animated when people ask about the baby and I get to talk about him.
I didn't know that date nights with my husband would become a necessity, and didn't know how hard it is to plan them and make them reality.
I didn't know that I really needed to back off from making too many outside-the-home committments - goes back to the "I didn't know how much time the baby really takes" idea.
I didn't know how much I would treasure having family close by, so they can help us out, sometimes at a moment's notice.

Now, I know. At least this much. SO. Much. More. Learning to come.